“Spilled Drinks” a poem

Spilled Drinks

It begins with a single glass held up in a room of strangers

CHEERS EVERYONE!

How quick does the first glass of smooth champagne become hard liquor?

In such a shape where shapes aren’t shapes at all

They’re dancing objects that move faster than my mind can keep up with

The air is thinner, my eyes are too heavy

Why wouldn’t anyone want to feel this way forever?

No longer do I feel the strain of the smile I fix on my face every day

My mouth is no longer mine

Words flow like the alcohol now swimming freely in my veins

The poison dissolves the pieces carefully placed to hide myself from the world

I am naked

With these spilled drinks come spilled secrets

The bottle in my hand bashes my head open

Letting out everything I’ve held onto fill the room

I am someone I hate

Clear thoughts now muffled by my state

I don’t feel the ground hit my knees as I fall for the eighth time

I don’t hear the people laugh at me

I don’t feel the stranger pressed up against me

I don’t care that he doesn’t love me or even know my name

I only care to get away from someone I used to love

The one I miss the most

Myself

But still I feel all the things I haven’t felt for a while

The things I felt the last time

The things I wish to never feel again

So I take another drink

Another two, another four

Another until I’ve drowned my sorrows

Until they are sorrows no more

Cheers everyone